Keeping the head

It's times like these when I wonder why I don't explode. I have had the worst week ever pokerwise since I started playing. At 7.30pm on Friday when I got an early double up in Galway I was thinking totally different. However a week later I am struggling with my sanity. Am I getting bad beats? Some of time. Am I running into big hands? Some of the time. Am I playing bad? Some of the time. 3 * Some of the time = All of the time!

I was at my lowest on Monday afternoon. The previous night I played 6 tournaments and failed to make the hour mark in all of them. Bar the boards Omaha I ran into Aces in each one and also had Aces cracked in 3 of them!!! Do I want sympathy? Not really. I lost the head in the $12 re-buy tournament on Paddy Power. The guy in the seat to my left was winning every hand he played, calling all in with 3 5 off suit at one point pre-flop. I went on major tilt and moved all in 6 times in a row until I won an hand. I was called and lost in alll of them until J3 flopped a house for me in a 4 way pot. I went on to make the money but still did not get enough to cover the re-buys.

Since then I have flopped the second nuts when some else has flopped the nuts so many times it is unbelievable. I have lost with AK vs Ax countless times and even had Aces cracked by the same guy twice in one STT. My online bankroll has took a major nosedive and I am not sure that I have enough left to play through it.

But I still love poker. It is like being hopelessy in love with the women of your dreams yet she cheats on you all the time and you always forgive her. I plan on forgiving poker when I win at Citywest tomorrow night. If not I will forgive some other time. What must it be like to have that power that you will be forgiven at somepoint whatever you do? I want it and I want it now!

See you at a table soon, If you can't stay lucky then keep trying until you do!